Motherhood

I am going to start this blog by clarifying I am a single 21 year old childless woman. But I feel like the Lord has been whispering to me a lot through motherhood.

The past year of my life has looked different than any other year community wise. I have been so blessed to be mentored and poured into by 7 women who are in very different seasons of life than me. I remember meeting for the first time with them and thinking… Lord what the heck are you doing placing me in this group. I thought I was going to be in a season where I was going to give; I was so hungry to pour out after returning from a year of service. 

As I listened to their stories of how the Lord is using them, the word motherhood stood out so evidently. I was able to hear how challenging and messy raising children can be. The crazy thing was after listening to countless stories of how every possible thing could have gone wrong… the end result was always so beautiful. 

From the beginning – carrying a child in your womb every ounce of you is given up. All control is lost. To me pregnancy is an incredible selfless act. When the time is right and you deliver a child, you suffer from extreme pain. Your body is pushed to the absolute limits, but you do it because you know something beautiful is going to happen as a result. 

I think about how the Lord creates each one of us. Before he even paints us in our mothers womb, he has already written our stories. He has seen our lives. He knows exactly who we are even before we take our first breath. He effortlessly creates us knowing exactly the wrongs we are going to commit, and yet still he chooses us to enter the world.

I spent a lot of time this year looking after a lot of super cool kiddos. In no way are they my kids, but it is such a privilege that their parents trust me enough to hold them for just a second. I think discipleship looks a lot like that. The Lord didn’t say to me before entering this season, “you NEED to hold my kids.” He said “WOULD YOU LIKE TO HOLD THEM?”

I am still in awe that I get the privilege to walk alongside 33 other young adults for just a moment. I think growth is such a beautiful process, and it is such a privilege to have an opportunity to watch that from the front row seat.

Thank you so much to everyone who has supported me and this team as we navigate entering into missions in the middle of a pandemic. With that being said, my squad has had a route change. Instead of going to Nicaragua for three months, we will be going to Costa Rica. We are so excited to hit the ground running with ministry.

Please pray over my team’s travels as we prepare to leave this Sunday. I am also still fundraising for my trip and would love your support if you are able to give!

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